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I bought a scooter

I bought a scooter! 

Hi everyone, I hope you are well! 

I just wanted to tell you a little bit about the scooter I bought a couple of weeks ago. ✨πŸŽ‰

woman with small fiber neuroapthy standing on a kickboard

Rolling off my feet causes pain 

The most annoying symptom from my small-fiber neuropathy (besides many othersπŸ™ƒ) is that my feet get painful when I walk. This prevents me from doing most exercise, even though I'm fit and keen to walk. If the bottom of my feet hurt, walking is just not fun at all.🦢🏻🦢🏻🦢🏻

There are a few factors that contribute to my feet getting painful, such as warm temperature and increased blood circulation. But the most prominent one is that my forefoot gets painful when I roll off my feet with my whole weight on them, especially when I wear shoes that do not have a padded sole. Lyrica/pregabalin has helped quite a bit with other pain symptoms, but has not been able to fix exercise-triggered foot pain.

Whenever I walk in shoes with a hard sole, my forefoot feels like I am walking on gravel with bare feet. If I keep walking despite the pain, it eventually starts feeling like something is stabbing into the bottom of my forefoot and later also my heel. At its worst, it has felt as though a glass splinter was stuck in my forefoot, which prevented me from stepping on it at all. Luckily that hasn't happened in a while, probably also because I learned not to keep walking once my feet are sore.

How to avoid getting painful feet?

One of my ways to help with my foot pain is to buy padded shoes, such as Ugg boots, which have a soft lamb skin sole. But I will write about my shoes in another post. But even with padded shoes, I can currently not walk much more than 2000-3000 steps before my feet get too sore. 

Otherwise, I can ride my bike, which doesn't cause foot pain and it's a good way to get around. It's just not always practical to bring your bike, if you want to go for a walk with someone or so. 

Why a scooter?

A few weeks ago, I went to see my friend M and my lovely little godson, who is now two and a half years old. Like most little kids these days, he has a little scooter. We went for a tiny little walk and he was cruising around us. 

I thought, this may be a good option to get around with my painful feet as well. No idea why this hadn't crossed my mind before, because you actually see a lot of adults on the streets and walkways on scooters these days. 

Cruising on the scooter doesn't put pressure on my forefoot...

The good thing about the scooter is that you stand on one foot with your body weight on it, but you don't have to roll off it. You use the other foot to push off the ground, but you don't actually have too much weight on the moving foot either. 
 
I have gone for a few 'walk-cruises' with Steve. So far, my feet were doing considerably ok. I can still feel them getting warm and a bit irritated, but it's a lot better than when I try to walk. 

I'm hoping that I won't need it for too long, and that I'll be able to walk better again soon (πŸ€›πŸ» on πŸͺ΅πŸͺ΅πŸͺ΅), but for the time being it's a way that allows me to get out and about and to move my body a bit without being in major pain. 

It's so easy to get stuck at home....

Due to Covid, I'm currently working from home. I used to just go for a long walk every day to air my mind and get some exercise. However, when my feet hurt, it is so easy to just get stuck at home, because I try to avoid anything that makes me sore. 

But getting out is so important for the mind....

But I find that staying home for a few days in a row really has a toll on my mental health. It's so much easier to over-think everything and to get stuck with our own thoughts if you don't get out into the fresh air and move for a bit every day at least. 

So the scooter has been a good way to get out a little, which I find helps me a lot. So I thought I'd share this. Sometimes it's the most simple things that can have a big impact, but you just need to have the idea. So if you have neuropathy and you have trouble walking, this may help you too.🌺



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Prednisone got me into remission

Prednisone got me into remission in 2014 

Hi everyone, good to see you back here! 

Today I will talk a bit about how prednisone cured my neuropathy back in 2014. Appologies in advance, this post is pretty long. I just didn't manage to tell it any shorter.πŸ™ƒ So if you are in a rush, postpone your read to later.πŸ˜ƒ 

After all these tests I finally tried prednisone treatment 

Back in 2014, Dr. Soland had promised me, that the skin biopsy was going to be the last test, before we try prednisone treatment. I had pushed for prednisone treatment since my first visit with him, because I had found this case report of patients with exactly the same symptoms, who were successfully treated with prednisone. 

I had gone through a large neuropathy workup, after my sudden onset of weird neuropathy symptoms back in 2014. I had, an ENG and an EMG, a ton of blood work and an MRI, a spinal tap, I saw a hematologist who did more blood tests and an ultra sound of my inner organs to rule out I had blood cancer, and finally I had a skin biopsy and autonomic function testing. We did not have the results of the skin biopsy yet, but the doc who did the autonomic function testing agreed that it was likely that I had small-fiber neuropathy. 

I was so sick of my neuropahty symptoms

I remember that I felt so relieved when I finally held this prescription for prednisone in my hands.πŸ’ŠπŸ’ŠπŸ’ŠπŸ’Š FINALLY, I was going to try something to treat this disease. I was so sick of my symptoms, which prevented me from doing almost anything I loved doing. 

I know that many patients with small-fiber neuropathy have to go for much longer before getting any treatment, so I don't want to complain. 3.5 months is comparably short. It just felt really long to me, especially because I had trouble walking, so I was home a lot and had time to research and think about my symptoms.🀨 

My feet turned painful and red when I got warm or did any kind of mild exercise. Increasingly often, it felt like something really sharp was cutting into the bottom of my feet when I was walking. I also had these weird electro shock-type feelings in my fingers and whenever I was slightly warm my fingers were really painful and it felt as though a numb kind of electric, felty layer was over the skin of my fingers. Some days it was hard to even type on my keyboard. 

Additionally, the tip of my nose felt tingly, and I had this weird itch high up in my nose that felt as though I had to sneeze all the time. 

What is prednisone?

packets of prednisone tablets lying on a table

Prednisone is a synthetic version of cortisone. Cortisone is a stress hormone, which our body produces as well. Our body produces an average of 16mg of cortisone per day, which equals about 7.5 mg of prednisone. I started on a dose of 60mg prednisone per day, so about 8 times of what my body would normally produce. 

Why do we use prednisone to treat autoimmune diseases?

In the 1950s, researchers accidentally observed that high doses of cortisone made patients with bad rheumatism walk again. Later they found out, that cortisone was able to suppress the immune system and to reduce inflammation at high doses. 

Ever since, synthetic and more potent versions of cortisone, most often prednisone, have been used to treat autoimmune conditions to suppress the immune system.... It is often the drug you try first, because it's very cheap and often times it works quickly and effectively. 

But prednisone comes with a big range of possible side effects, especially if you use if for a long time. These include bone damage, diabetes, glaucoma, cataracts, and many more... So prednisone should never be a long-term treatment if anything else works as well. But usually a short course of prednisone over a few weeks / months does not cause much damage.

The anxious wait for an effect

So the morning after my skin biopsy, I took 60mg of prednisone. I was very excited to finally try treatment, but at the same time I was scared it wasn't going to work, because there was no plan B at this point.

Within about 30 minutes after taking the first tablets, I could feel increased tingling in my feet. I also felt weirdly energized and motivated, which was strange because for the past 3.5 months I felt the opposite.

The plan was to take prednisone for 2 weeks and then to check in with Dr. Soland to discuss how to proceed. So every day, I scrutinized all my symptoms to figure out whether they were better than the day before. 

It's really difficult to actually say if neuropathy gets better or worse, because symptoms depend on so many different factors, like activities, temperature etc. To objectify them a bit, I set up a journal (I'm still journaling today), in which I wrote down my symptoms and my overall pain score. I also walked home from work every day the exact same way, and I wrote down how far I could walk before I had to get on my bike due to major pain and swelling in my feet. 

For the first few days, I noticed a bit of increased tingling in my feet but I couldn't really tell a difference in terms of pain. I noticed that my hands were a bit less painful, but the symptoms in my hands had fluctuated before as well. 

Big set back after about a week of prednisone

About a week into my prednisone treatment, I noticed that my right foot started to get more painful than usual while I was walking. It kind of felt like walking on broken glass....I hadn't brought my bike so I had to keep walking. It was only about a 10 minute walk, but by the time I got home and I took my shoes off, my right foot was bright red all the way up to my ankle. 

I felt so disheartened, because that was the reddest and most painful it had ever been. Before that it was usually mainly the forefoot and the toes that were red and painful. I came home and had a 'minor' breakdown...😣

Another thing with small-fiber neuropthy is, that once you were in bad pain, this pain lingers for a few days afterwards. So for the 3 days after, I had really bad pain in my right forefoot and had to walk on the side of my foot, even if I only wanted to walk a few steps. I was feeling pretty depressed, because I thought prednisone wasn't working.

But then it started to get a bit better

But, because I had no plan B anyway, I kept taking it. Somehow, after the few days of increased symptoms, it started to get a bit better. And I felt like I could walk further without major pain. 


Snippet of my journal in which I documented my daily neuropathy symptoms
This is a snippet of my neuropathy journal, in which I wrote down my daily symptoms and pain level....sorry it's a bit blurryπŸ™ƒ

Two weeks into my treatment, I met with Dr. Soland and told him that I think it may be getting a little bit better, but that I wasn't exactly sure.....
We agreed to keep going for another two weeks and then to go down to 50mg/day for anotheer 2 weeks, which is still a pretty high, immunosuppressive, dose anyway. 

One day in May, it became clear to me that it was getting better

When I look at my journal today, it was pretty obvious that my symptoms were getting better over time, but I didn't let my self believe it for a long time. 

One day in May, I had something to do in town. I took the tram to get there and then decided to walk home to see how far I could walk. It was an approximately 20 minute walk, which I would never have managed when my symptoms were bad. I walked all the way home, with only minor pain.🚢‍♀️ 

I remember how it just finally sank it, as I was walking, that prednisone did really seem to work. It felt really overwhelmed at this point, so I just started crying, as i was walking home. Luckily, it was a hot day anyway and I was wearing my sunglasses😎 

Finally, I had an explanation for what was going on in my body. My small-fiber neuropathy was caused by some sort of auto-immune / inflammatory process. Obviously, that wasn't an exact understanding of what's going on, but it was so much better than tapping in complete dark. 

before and after picutre of my feet with erythromelalgia during prednisone treatment
This is a comparison of my feet about 1-2 weeks into prednisone treatment (left) and about 1 month later (right)


How did I tolerate prednisone?

Overall, I tolerated prednisone pretty well. It made me more energized and actually more productive at work tooπŸ’ŠπŸ’ŠπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ Don't take this as an advice to use prednisone as a lifestyle drug though....πŸ˜‚ I did get quite some unpleasant side effects too. 

The side effect, that I felt most prominently was that fact that prednisone is a stress hormone...πŸ‘€πŸ‘€πŸ‘€I really had trouble winding down, which on top of all the stress with the neuropathy really didn't help. 

Most annoyingly, I could not fall asleep anymore. Even though I felt really exhausted, my mind wouldn't turn off when i was laying in bed and my eyes just wouldn't close. Dr. Soland prescribed me sleeping pills, and with those I was able to fall asleep, but I still woke up really early every day and didn't feel well rested. 

I also noticed, that my patience with other people wasn't great. I'm sure it was a mix between stress from my neuropathy and the prednisone on top of it. But I didn't tolerate a whole lot of stress. Events with many people and a lot of noise kind of upset me and triggered an urge to leave the place.

I also noted that my skin bruised really easily, and that I grew more hair in my face. Not badly, but just a little more fluff on the side of my face. I also had a pretty bad heartburn after about two weeks into treatment, so Dr. Soland prescribed some antacids (proton pump inhibitors), which I took throughout treatment. 

Overall, I just felt like I was a little bit beside myself. But as I noticed that prednisone was helping with the neuropathy, I was more than happy to take this.πŸ’ͺ🏻πŸ’ͺ🏻 

I slowly decreased prednisone

After 4 weeks at 60mg, I decreased my prednisone dose by 10mg every 2 weeks. Once I was down to 10mg, I had to decrease even more slowly, because my body likely stopped producing it's own cortisone by now. So I had to reduce the dose very slowly, to let my own production kick in again, and I didn't run into an adrenal crisis due to lack of cortisone. 

So overall I took prednisone for 4 months, but as I reduced the dose, the side effects got a lot better. Once my dose was below 10mg, I didn't notice any side effects anymore. 

Then I stopped prednisone altogether and I was in remission

And then, one day in late August 2014, I stopped prednisone all together and my neuropathy symptoms were gone completely.🌺🌺 It felt unreal, and I felt soooooo relieved. At the same time I was really scared, that symptoms would return any moment. But nothing happened for the rest of the year. Nothing happened the year after..... 

Dr. Soland was really happy as well. He presented my case to his colleagues at one of his local neurology meetings. He also assumed that my neuropathy was gone for good now, based on prior reports. But he also said to me, that if it did come back, we had a road map of what we needed to do now anyway.

Spoiler alert, symptoms did come back....but not for 3.5 years of complete remission.... But that is a matter for another post. Thanks for reading all the way to the end. I know this was a pretty long post again, but I just had a lot to sayπŸ€“πŸ˜‚

I hope you all enjoy your Sunday!πŸ’•

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Covid-19 vaccine done

I got the second shot of my Covid vaccine yesterday... 

Hi everyone, good to see you back here! 

Just a little update. I got the second shot of the Pfizer Covid-19 vaccine yesterday! πŸ’‰πŸ’‰⭐️

How did it go?

Getting the vaccine was not a big deal at all. First of all, I had Steve driving me to Lucerne and back, which made it very easy.πŸ’•Like the first shot, the second shot itself was basically done in 5 minutes. You line up with everyone else, go into a cabin to get your shot, get your little vaccine sticker, wait for 15 minutes to see if you have any major allergic reactions, and then you are good to walk out. 

The moment I walked out, I did not feel any different than when I walked in. It feels strange, that such a tiny step, has such a big impact on our lives in the world we live in at the moment.πŸ™ƒ 

Badge I received after having completed my Covid-19 vaccine

What side effects do I have?

In the car on the way home I could feel my arm getting a little sore. By the time we got home, I thought I'd better do whatever I need to do, because I expected to feel kind of ill the next day. So I started replanting some plants and tidying up things....πŸ™ƒ 

While doing this, I could feel a headache coming on, so I parked myself on the lounge to watch TV. Headache got increasingly worse, so I took a paracetamol and an antihistamine, which I used to take when I had headaches from IVIG infusions. Meds helped a bit, but not that much. So I went to bed, and thankfully slept.

Today I woke up with a pretty severe headache and overall feeling unwell. My back is sore, my arms and legs feel really tired and heavy, and I feel kind of cold. Overall, I just feel like I'm at the beginning of a cold. 

Luckily its Saturday, and I kept the day free to recover. So it's me and Netflix today.πŸ‘€ Plus writing a little blog post☺️

After all, having vaccine reactions is a good thing...

Vaccine reactions are a sign that the body does what it's meant to do. My immune system is reacting to the Covid vaccine, so that next time it encounters a Sars Cov-2 virus, it will be ready to fight it. 

I have had diffferent immunosuppressants over the past few months, so it's good to know that my immune system is fit enough to react properly. So I will be happy to stick this out. I'd much rather spend today on the lounge than ending up with Long-Covid or something like that.πŸ’ͺ🏻

Has it messed with my neuropathy?

Like I told you in one of my last posts, I was worried that a Covid vaccine, or any vaccine really, could trigger my immune system to overreact. People commonly say, that if you have an autoimmune disease, your immune system is in overdrive. So obviously you worry that something that stimulates your immune system would send it in over-overdrive. 

However, this theory does probably not really address the problem properly. I've heard many experts say, that in case of autoimmune diseases, one aspect of the immune system has taken a wrong turn at some point. So it's not the entire immune system that has gone completely wonky. But who knows really??? There is still a lot of work needed before we understand this properly. 

Advocates of the Covid vaccine always say, that there is no data suggesting that the Covid vaccine makes autoimmune disease worse. But I think it's a big differentce between having no data, and having data that show it doesn't happen. And there is no data showing it won't make it worse, because people with autoimmune diseases, and other chronic diseases, are always excluded from drug trials. 

I decided for myself, that being protected against Covid-19 is a priority for me right now. Especially because I have new treatments coming up suppressing my immune system. 

So far, my neuropathy is exactly the same as yesterday. It's not great at all, but it's been like this for 3-4 weeks. So 🀞🏼it will stay this way. 

Will I have a good enough vaccine protection?

There is also no data showing how people with immunosuppression or other chronic diseases react to the Covid vaccine. Thankfully, there are some people starting to look into this. But for now, it's just trial and error and hoping for the best. After all, vaccine protection is definitely better than without the Covid vaccine

I'm currently not on immunosuppression, and my last treatments are a while ago. So I think my vaccine reaction should be pretty good. And given that I feel miserable right now, I am definitely reacting.  

I'll wait long enough for vaccine protection to build up, before I start the next immunosuppression with daratumumab. During and after this treatment I will be immunosuppresed and theoretically more susceptible to infections in general. However, experience with daratumumab has shown, that people who got it, do generally not get sick a whole lot more. 

Plus the immune response from the Covid vaccine should not be destroyed once my immune system has geneerated the memory cells to remember this germ. It may be slightly reduced for the time during treatment, but I should be protected (knock on πŸͺ΅ ). 

And on this note I wish you all a happy weekend.πŸ’• I am going back to Netflix and tea drinking now. 


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First week on Lyrica

My first week on Lyrica / pregabalin 

Hi everyone, good to see you back here! 

About a week ago, I told you I was going to try Lyrica (pregabalin) because my neuropathy symptoms had gotten worse

What is Lyrica?

Lyrica contains the drug substance pregabalin and was originally introduced as an  antiepileptic drug. It works by inhibiting calcium channels, which modifies nerve conduction. This effect on nerves has been found to reduce neuropathic pain. Therefore, pregabalin is one of the most commonly used meds to treat neuropathy pain due to different causes.
 
Pregabalin does not treat the cause of neuropathy, but it reduces the pain to a certain degree. 

So far I have always refused to take Lyrica/pregabalin

For years I have refused to try pregabalin, because one of its main side effects is tiredness and problems with memory function. I was scared it would turn me into a daytime zombie and make it hard to focus on my work. After all, my brain is functioning well, as opposed to my peripheral nerves.😑I rely on it a lot to do my research work, so I did not want to also deal with fatigue and reduced mental strength. I read some patient expriences online, where people said it made them so tired that they basically could not function. 

So far, I also never really had to take it, because we always tried some other immunotherapy instead. However, at the moment, I have decided to try taking it, until my COVID vaccine is completed and I can try immunotherapy again. After all, I can just see how it goes and stop it again if I don't tolerate it, right?πŸ’Š

pack of lyrica with a blister of capsules lying on it

But now I decided to give Lyrica/pregabalin a try...

This is the capsules I currently take. My pharmacy friends will wonder why I did not get the generic capsules, because the original product is a lot more expensive. You are rightπŸ˜ƒ I actually was wondering the exact same thing, but somehow it totally slipped my attention at first. I will ask them to give me a generic next time. There is no need to get the more expensive original product in my opinion. Chronic disease already causes enough health care costs.

So I started pregabalin about a week ago on a Saturday. I wanted to try it on a weekend to see how I react to it. I started on a very low dose (25mg twice daily) and am now on 75mg twice daily, which is still in the lower range of what you can take.

Did I turn into a daytime zombie yet?

So far, I do feel more tired, mostly when I sit around at home or work on my computer. It kind of feels a bit like I am in a daze and less energetic. But overall it is not that I can't function. 

Luckily, I find that it has not really adversely impacted my work.🀞🏼🀞🏼 Ironically, I feel like I can almost concentrate better, because I am kind of too tired to get distracted.🀨🀨 So once I started writing something or so, I just keep on it. I wonder if that is how Ritalin works for people with ADHDπŸ™ƒ

Whenever I do something actively around the house or outside I am fine and the tiredness goes away. So overall it has not been too bad so far, and it has had the good side effect that I sleep better. But I am still on a pretty low dose, and I will have to see how this goes once I put the dose up more. 

I am not sure what my target dose is yet. I will have to increase until I find the dose that gives sufficient pain relief with tolerable side effects. 

Has it helped with the pain so far?

In terms of pain relief, I do think it helps a bit. It kind of takes the edge off the weird burning pain I have sometimes. I also feel that my hands are a bit less painful, and I don't get these weird little shooting pains anymore, which i had in my hands and legs sometimes. However, symptoms are far from gone and it definitely has not been a miracle drug for me so far. 

The main problem I have is that my feet are painful when I walk, which is the most limiting symptoms. It is mainly the bottom of my feet, which get painful when I walk in shoes. Pregabalin has not been able to fix this so far. 

However, more pain relief might set in with some delay and with higher doses too. So I will keep you updated on this. 

What's the plan now? 

Basically, I do hope to find a better treatment, which treats the cause of my neuropathy rather than just the symptoms anyway. I have previously had immunotherapy, which resolved my symptoms completely, but more about this later. So the bottom line is, I know effective immuno therapy is possible and this is what I aim for. So I plan to stop pregabalin again as soon as I feel better🀞🏼🀞🏼🀞🏼🀞🏼🀞🏼 KNOCK ON WOOD!!!

And now I wish you all happy Easter or happy holiday, whatever you celebrate. Thanks for reading my blog and coming on this journey with me. 

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